Beautiful, brother. So grateful for you sharing your story and wisdom as always. And happy to hear of these major pieces coming together for you! 🩵
Curious if AoA is on your list for emotional fluidity work. I attended their Reunion event in May and have been pretty astounded by some of the shifts I’ve seen in my own life in the wake of the emotional releases we did.
I’d recommend it. The Groundbreakers weeklong retreat would probably be the best option for what you’re looking for. It’s in person and the deepest dive into the release work as far as I can tell. You can email Sarah Azevedo to be added to the list and she’ll email you when new dates are added for you to apply.
Or if you’ve taken Master Class or Great Decisions Course online, then you qualify for the annual Reunion retreat.
The holy joke here is that sometimes the demon at the center of the maze is trauma, sometimes it is ancestral grief, sometimes it is shadow, and sometimes it is caffeine lighting your esophagus on fire while your soul files a mystical complaint. The body is not a dumb meat suitcase dragging consciousness around. It remembers, protests, burns, dreams, and occasionally stages a coup until the head stops pretending it is the whole parliament. Maybe the Minotaur was never there to kill us. Maybe it was the exiled part saying, “Finally. You found me. Now stop calling me evil and listen.”
Thanks for this. Out of interest did Bob Falconer say you had a UB? I’m curious if the UB specialist always sees a UB, or often. It’s interesting the parallels between shamanic exorcism and modern trauma therapy and the blurred line between them…it got quite blurred in the 80s with the multiple personality disorder satanic panic. In my own spiritual emergency 20 years ago I also had a recurring nightmare figure that I ended up interpreting as a dissociated / demonised part of myself demanding attention.
By the way, you came to mind many times writing this article. Because I recall back in the day, you said something about having to fight the bad guy again at the end of the movie. That really lodged in my unconscious.
I got obsessed with the ‘wild man’ figure from my nightmares and actually spent a few years on a sprawling book tracing the appearance of this figure in different eras and texts. Totally bonkers but it was meaningful and fun to work on. https://www.philosophyforlife.org/blog/the-wild-man-1
I enjoyed that article. I’m reading the shadow one. It was interesting timing for me that I did this out this interview with Dan Lawrence while I was writing this, which is one of my favorite ever read or listen to the bit about his experience with the dangerous man in the psychiatric unit. https://newsletter.theleading-edge.org/p/a-dream-life
Can this Halloween costume make a comeback??! I think finding ways to become my greatest fears is the next-level of facing fears. Tantric at its core. Chanting mantra and intuitive sounding has done wonders for my heart/throat stuff. Essentially bringing the right side of the brain thru the voice. A lot of pain is buried there, and liberation. Crying doesn’t need a reason why, just needs a place to go. Become the witness of the tears and let it be a prayer with no need to understand or analyze. Best wishes for your continued journey into darkness & light and thanks for sharing your story 🙏
So much to like in here. Grateful to know you more deeply, and appreciating your self-reflection and vulnerability. Makes me proud to be a member of Leading Edge. Of all the great sentences herein, this is my favorite (understatement):
"It’s what makes reality so tricky to unpack." Indeed!
Was literally thinking about you 10 minutes ago, so how’s that for a synchronicity. We are overdue a catch-up, but thank you so much for spending time on this. I just hope it serves as a reminder for fellow members what can happen if you lean into the superpowers in and around the group.
This article is very much appreciated thank you Tom. I'm glad to hear you're not evil 😁and similarly I don't consider myself to be so, despite experiencing some pretty seriously demonic inner voices and hellish states of mind. It's a huge subject which can be viewed and understood through so many different lenses, all making sense within their own particular frame. I'm curious to know whether you've come across the work of Paul Levy on wetiko, a native American term for cannabilistic spirit. I've personally found his work valuable in helping me understand what the hell is going on ( literally) Paul refers to wetiko as a mind virus or form of psychic blindness which every spiritual tradition is pointing at in their own way. He has recently joined substack plus has written several books on wetiko and is also a decades long scholar of Jung as well as a practising Tibetan Buddhist.
That’s so funny. You mention it because I am a subscriber to Paul’s substack. I think a lot about the mind virus. Perhaps it’s what gets in through the trauma in the first place. But for me, I think it’s been more conventional sources rather than deep evil at least recently.
This is what I wrote to my nephew who shared this article with me.FYI I am a shamanic practitioner
I have read that with close attention. There is so much I could say but mostly that he is right on the money based on my own experiences/knowledge with a lot of how this journey into the shadow unfolds.
For sure, those energy attachments whether you call them evil or low frequency do appear to exist and when removed can have profoundly positive effects on one’s life.
We also can experience being “sucked dry “by what some call “energy vampires“ (very needy or very sick people or people who have energy attachments themselves). I don’t talk about a lot about evil, or use the word demons because each possesses an energy that one can absorb. I have had sessions where Spirit removes fear bodies that are generated in people or at least triggered by watching horror movies. Highly do not recommend doing that. lol
I have questionned things exactly like he does, (like anyone who has a left brain probably would) whether these energy unattached bodies, are real or just a part of our imagination.
But actually that’s kind of a useless question because if we have it in our imagination, we actually have it in our energetic world and psyche.
One day, I can tell you about my descent into all forms of evil in a journey where I was fully protected. My experience was that any thought form that we can have then manifests in a visual and energy form that portrays an ‘evil force’. I saw some things that my own imagination would never have conjured up, but either actually exist or someone’s imagination did.
And some people never experience any of this. So everything is truly linked to our own journey and exploration of light and dark.
Wow what a message, and lovely to meet you Valerie. I love Rob!
I’ve decided that my own inner, trauma and healing journey (at least recently) is shockingly light and positive. Although it may involve confronting more darkness, it’s been clear to me so far that this process is in service of bringing light to that darkness.
Hi Tom. So lovely to hear from you. As another person who loves Rob I want to say thank you for the positive and inspirational impact you have had in his life, and by extension in my life now💗.Your journey is no less difficult than some who have had recognizable trauma. I believe that anyone willing to go as deep as you have into darkness is clearing energy not only for themselves but also for the collective - that is why any of those emotions - fear, anger, grief can feel ( and are) so intense at times. Thank you for the work and teaching that you are doing. Sending much 💕
Can the Leading Edge "session" with Stephen Zerfas of Jhourney be found anywhere online? I have not yet taught myself to reach jhana, but I've made such remarkable progress by using Jhourney's free instructions that I think they may be giving away the store.
Such an interesting read! Have you heard about Biodecoding that focuses on ancestral trauma healing? It helped me a lot and really put things into a new perspective. 🌷
Have you ever had someone with shamanic training check you for energetic attachments? Something about how haunted you describe this demonic influence reminds me of my own experience having an attachment removed.
Seven years ago, my wife trained with Villoldo's Light Body School and at the end she offered to try it out on me, choosing the extraction ritual to test. I had an open mind, but wasn't expecting anything, either way.
She immediately found something and I started vibrating like crazy. I laughed hysterically, because it was so sudden and expected. My wife asked if I wanted it out and I laughed again and said "hell yes!" She completed the ritual and we laughed about how odd and unexpected that was and went to bed.
The next morning I woke and decided to resign from the startup I'd been running obsessively for four years. This total 180 shocked quite a few people when they heard.
Seven years later and I'm STILL unpacking this attachments influence on my life. Eyes still wide with wonder at the strangeness of our world and existence. Intensely relieved to be free of those obsessive qualities for nearly four decades before it was removed, never to return.
Apologies for such a long comment! (Just not so easy to drop a question like "have you checked for non-corporeal energetic attachments?" without feeling the need to explain the whole darn thing LOL. Rational mind still making a fit!)
What an amazing experience! As synchronicity would have it I’m actually talking to a hybrid shaman therapist on Monday night. But I’ve met so many practitioners and many of them have checked me for entities and nobody has come up seeing one yet. At the time it wouldn’t have surprised me at all. But right now possibly not.
Thanks for sharing the unfolding of you journey! Not sure why, but I got to share this: When you get to the center again, use “…Im not inferior to you…” (jkv), staring firmly into the mirror you’ve found there.
Beautiful, brother. So grateful for you sharing your story and wisdom as always. And happy to hear of these major pieces coming together for you! 🩵
Curious if AoA is on your list for emotional fluidity work. I attended their Reunion event in May and have been pretty astounded by some of the shifts I’ve seen in my own life in the wake of the emotional releases we did.
Second person in my comments talking AoA. Strong rep within LE and Joe himself did a private session for us. Maybe I need to go myself?!
I’d recommend it. The Groundbreakers weeklong retreat would probably be the best option for what you’re looking for. It’s in person and the deepest dive into the release work as far as I can tell. You can email Sarah Azevedo to be added to the list and she’ll email you when new dates are added for you to apply.
Or if you’ve taken Master Class or Great Decisions Course online, then you qualify for the annual Reunion retreat.
The holy joke here is that sometimes the demon at the center of the maze is trauma, sometimes it is ancestral grief, sometimes it is shadow, and sometimes it is caffeine lighting your esophagus on fire while your soul files a mystical complaint. The body is not a dumb meat suitcase dragging consciousness around. It remembers, protests, burns, dreams, and occasionally stages a coup until the head stops pretending it is the whole parliament. Maybe the Minotaur was never there to kill us. Maybe it was the exiled part saying, “Finally. You found me. Now stop calling me evil and listen.”
Thanks for this. Out of interest did Bob Falconer say you had a UB? I’m curious if the UB specialist always sees a UB, or often. It’s interesting the parallels between shamanic exorcism and modern trauma therapy and the blurred line between them…it got quite blurred in the 80s with the multiple personality disorder satanic panic. In my own spiritual emergency 20 years ago I also had a recurring nightmare figure that I ended up interpreting as a dissociated / demonised part of myself demanding attention.
By the way, you came to mind many times writing this article. Because I recall back in the day, you said something about having to fight the bad guy again at the end of the movie. That really lodged in my unconscious.
I got obsessed with the ‘wild man’ figure from my nightmares and actually spent a few years on a sprawling book tracing the appearance of this figure in different eras and texts. Totally bonkers but it was meaningful and fun to work on. https://www.philosophyforlife.org/blog/the-wild-man-1
I enjoyed that article. I’m reading the shadow one. It was interesting timing for me that I did this out this interview with Dan Lawrence while I was writing this, which is one of my favorite ever read or listen to the bit about his experience with the dangerous man in the psychiatric unit. https://newsletter.theleading-edge.org/p/a-dream-life
He didn’t say either way but my response was it was implicit in the treatment given what I’d read about his methods.
This one was worth the months of processing 😀!
That means a lot to me thanks
Can this Halloween costume make a comeback??! I think finding ways to become my greatest fears is the next-level of facing fears. Tantric at its core. Chanting mantra and intuitive sounding has done wonders for my heart/throat stuff. Essentially bringing the right side of the brain thru the voice. A lot of pain is buried there, and liberation. Crying doesn’t need a reason why, just needs a place to go. Become the witness of the tears and let it be a prayer with no need to understand or analyze. Best wishes for your continued journey into darkness & light and thanks for sharing your story 🙏
I don’t know what my current Halloween costume would be then? Sitting still for an hour without my phone? 😱
So much to like in here. Grateful to know you more deeply, and appreciating your self-reflection and vulnerability. Makes me proud to be a member of Leading Edge. Of all the great sentences herein, this is my favorite (understatement):
"It’s what makes reality so tricky to unpack." Indeed!
Was literally thinking about you 10 minutes ago, so how’s that for a synchronicity. We are overdue a catch-up, but thank you so much for spending time on this. I just hope it serves as a reminder for fellow members what can happen if you lean into the superpowers in and around the group.
This article is very much appreciated thank you Tom. I'm glad to hear you're not evil 😁and similarly I don't consider myself to be so, despite experiencing some pretty seriously demonic inner voices and hellish states of mind. It's a huge subject which can be viewed and understood through so many different lenses, all making sense within their own particular frame. I'm curious to know whether you've come across the work of Paul Levy on wetiko, a native American term for cannabilistic spirit. I've personally found his work valuable in helping me understand what the hell is going on ( literally) Paul refers to wetiko as a mind virus or form of psychic blindness which every spiritual tradition is pointing at in their own way. He has recently joined substack plus has written several books on wetiko and is also a decades long scholar of Jung as well as a practising Tibetan Buddhist.
That’s so funny. You mention it because I am a subscriber to Paul’s substack. I think a lot about the mind virus. Perhaps it’s what gets in through the trauma in the first place. But for me, I think it’s been more conventional sources rather than deep evil at least recently.
Fantastic, I figured good chance you'd be onto the mind virus idea and agree about trauma being one of its main pathways.
This is what I wrote to my nephew who shared this article with me.FYI I am a shamanic practitioner
I have read that with close attention. There is so much I could say but mostly that he is right on the money based on my own experiences/knowledge with a lot of how this journey into the shadow unfolds.
For sure, those energy attachments whether you call them evil or low frequency do appear to exist and when removed can have profoundly positive effects on one’s life.
We also can experience being “sucked dry “by what some call “energy vampires“ (very needy or very sick people or people who have energy attachments themselves). I don’t talk about a lot about evil, or use the word demons because each possesses an energy that one can absorb. I have had sessions where Spirit removes fear bodies that are generated in people or at least triggered by watching horror movies. Highly do not recommend doing that. lol
I have questionned things exactly like he does, (like anyone who has a left brain probably would) whether these energy unattached bodies, are real or just a part of our imagination.
But actually that’s kind of a useless question because if we have it in our imagination, we actually have it in our energetic world and psyche.
One day, I can tell you about my descent into all forms of evil in a journey where I was fully protected. My experience was that any thought form that we can have then manifests in a visual and energy form that portrays an ‘evil force’. I saw some things that my own imagination would never have conjured up, but either actually exist or someone’s imagination did.
And some people never experience any of this. So everything is truly linked to our own journey and exploration of light and dark.
Wow what a message, and lovely to meet you Valerie. I love Rob!
I’ve decided that my own inner, trauma and healing journey (at least recently) is shockingly light and positive. Although it may involve confronting more darkness, it’s been clear to me so far that this process is in service of bringing light to that darkness.
Lots of love
T
Hi Tom. So lovely to hear from you. As another person who loves Rob I want to say thank you for the positive and inspirational impact you have had in his life, and by extension in my life now💗.Your journey is no less difficult than some who have had recognizable trauma. I believe that anyone willing to go as deep as you have into darkness is clearing energy not only for themselves but also for the collective - that is why any of those emotions - fear, anger, grief can feel ( and are) so intense at times. Thank you for the work and teaching that you are doing. Sending much 💕
Your message put a spring in my step thank you
💗
Can the Leading Edge "session" with Stephen Zerfas of Jhourney be found anywhere online? I have not yet taught myself to reach jhana, but I've made such remarkable progress by using Jhourney's free instructions that I think they may be giving away the store.
Sadly not it was just for members. It’s hard to believe this stuff is real but I’m starting to think it is.
Such an interesting read! Have you heard about Biodecoding that focuses on ancestral trauma healing? It helped me a lot and really put things into a new perspective. 🌷
Oh no, I haven’t heard of that. Thank you, this is why I enjoy writing in public because I get great leads like this.
Have you ever had someone with shamanic training check you for energetic attachments? Something about how haunted you describe this demonic influence reminds me of my own experience having an attachment removed.
Seven years ago, my wife trained with Villoldo's Light Body School and at the end she offered to try it out on me, choosing the extraction ritual to test. I had an open mind, but wasn't expecting anything, either way.
She immediately found something and I started vibrating like crazy. I laughed hysterically, because it was so sudden and expected. My wife asked if I wanted it out and I laughed again and said "hell yes!" She completed the ritual and we laughed about how odd and unexpected that was and went to bed.
The next morning I woke and decided to resign from the startup I'd been running obsessively for four years. This total 180 shocked quite a few people when they heard.
Seven years later and I'm STILL unpacking this attachments influence on my life. Eyes still wide with wonder at the strangeness of our world and existence. Intensely relieved to be free of those obsessive qualities for nearly four decades before it was removed, never to return.
Apologies for such a long comment! (Just not so easy to drop a question like "have you checked for non-corporeal energetic attachments?" without feeling the need to explain the whole darn thing LOL. Rational mind still making a fit!)
What an amazing experience! As synchronicity would have it I’m actually talking to a hybrid shaman therapist on Monday night. But I’ve met so many practitioners and many of them have checked me for entities and nobody has come up seeing one yet. At the time it wouldn’t have surprised me at all. But right now possibly not.
I’m super glad your story ended the way it has
Thanks for sharing the unfolding of you journey! Not sure why, but I got to share this: When you get to the center again, use “…Im not inferior to you…” (jkv), staring firmly into the mirror you’ve found there.
Let's keep going, higher self has our back 💪🏼
Super interesting. I will try that, thank
Thanks for sharing your story! You're always such a huge inspiration to me. Sending you blessings and all the best!